Different Lifestyle indeed

Just read Izyan's blog about her "new friend"... Was a bit reluctant to get down from Crystal's car when reach my hall but I couldn't possibl ride with u girls until Yio Chu Kang...

Thing is, I have known of a case like tt too... And it tends to make ppl think about it alot... Like we said just now, how can anyone NOT go thru an internal struggle before deciding to abort... Thing is, I wouldn't know what to do if tt happened to me... Will I abort it just coz it's in the way or let it come into the world and then decide on the next step in life after tt??

The girl sounded very cool and aloof about it but was it really coz she really didn't care? Or like, coz the guy is just casual friend so she put up this cool front to not make things any more awkward than it already is... And I think, sometimes hardening ur heart can help u through a lot of life's pits... Crystal said maybe she had alr struggled with this issue in her heart alr and I think so too... So what if the baby is not of the man tt u love but the result of a moment's folly? It's still ur baby right?? And what exactly is the right thing to do in such a case?

If it were me, I don't think I will be able to keep it... I will probably regret it and cry and feel guilty for the rest of my life but I don't think I am brave enough to bring it to the world... In the first place, I will probably blame it for all the lost opportunities... I will probably lament tt the baby robbed me of my freedom... Selfish I know. Irresponsible I know. It's not the baby's fault but mine right?

Thank God I don't have to think of such things... I pity tt girl really... So young, and most would prob say it's her own fault for taking tt step to risk pregnancy but I still think, she alr has enough punishment coz she will have to carry this guilt in her for the rest of her life... Will she still be able to smile at tt cute cooing baby in the pram at the mall?? Will she be able to look at her own baby next time and cry tears of joy and not guilty tears for the baby tt she killed years ago?

Shite... getting a bit emo now... Haiz... Must be Toni Braxton singing Unbreak My Heart on Class95 tt's causing me to feel liddat...

I pray tt I will never have to stand at such a crossroad... I pray tt I will never have to look back on my life and regret taking a life... I pray tt no girl stands there too.

Mi amigas son bonitas, divertidos y TONTO

Yes, my friends are pretty, funny and DUMB... Haha!! Not in tt Stupid kind but we do say some stupid things at times...

AND, Izzy u are banned from uttering tt "M" word... M***o ... Banned from saying tt in front of me during the early part of the week... U can safely say tt in my face on Thursdays onwards... U know how I become crazy when u say tt on wed or tue... It's like what the full moon is like to a werewolf and Mambo has the same effect on me!

Damn! I just said tt word... Anyway, u haven't bring me go try sheesha yet... Wanna see what is the big hoohaa about tt thingy and why Crystal wun get high but u do...

Oooh... And tt HEART-TO-HEART on sex was fun... Throw everything out in the air and discuss discuss discuss... But PL missed out on some parts leh... Let's watch her reaction next time...

I realised yesterday tt I feel like an invalid without my Internet connection... I am hooked to the internet man... Need to talk to my friends and all...

Tml is Limei's BDAY le!! Felt so funny telling Tracey's mum tt i can't teach on thur coz i attending friend's bday party... Like so kiddish... BUT I WANNA GO!!!!! Anyway, I hope she enjoys herself tml... Tt poor girl plan until like... Cake also must mull over for so long...

Right... shall go dig for some food... Hungry...

To Do List

Things to do today...

(1) Finish spanish assignment
(2) Read HP301 Developmental Niche
(3) Print all notes for HP301
(4) Do HP301 assignment 4
(5) Shite... Haven't mark tuition homework... Sian...

Thunder rumbling... Good weather leh. BUT since I slept early last night must try to be as productive as possible this morning! Do all pressing matters first!

Hungry... hope Crystal comes to school early... Can go to NIE and eat?

Midnight Badminton

I was supposed to be reading my textbook... studying really... But looked what happened?!

Dear Limei, I think cannot le... Don't tempt me with these midnight activities... Must study le... Only 28 more days to go till exams... How to finish liddat?! Anyway, thnx for the 100Plus!! And my arm feeling very achey now... Too long never play badminton..

And stupid Ruz say i like COW, got so much strength... then somemore ask me to send him my pic for him to photoshop!! Slap you lah! Please lor... Don't think u final year can bully me hor!!

Anyway, gtg shower then sleep early... maybe read a bit of my book then go zzz... Hehehe!!! Mugger mode alert!!! I should put up another countdown to PARTYTIME!!! This time Peiling got no excuse to run!!! Bleh!!

Was talking to Di just now and well, I know what u are gg thru... Really... U witnessed it when I was gg thru tt with Shilong... Often, we are able to dish out advice so easily but when things happen we really can't control ourselve... Emotions are liddat...

But u are doing well now too, dun have to think of him if he has decided to move on. you should do tt too. And it's not like there aren't suitors ard u... maybe they can be taller lah, haha, but still... AND he doesn't deserve u and u dun deserve to be treated the way he did when u were still tgt... You have so much gg for u now so don't bother ur cute lil head with his stuffs...

You know how I feel about relationships... Young once, don't waste too much time on the details... Might regret later for not finding out much more but at least I did what I wanted to do and I won't have to bother with the "what if I had..." and then just move on... UNTIL you find THE ONE.

Ahhhh...

The elusive THE ONE... When will you appear and what form would you take? Will you fit all criteria on my checklist? Or will I have to compromise?

New-est Skin

I promise this is the last I am changing skins... for now...

Couldn't help it man, just felt this was more like it... Love the countdown though! haha!!

Tuition later... So hungry tt I decided to finish the remnants of my potatochips and I shall have a proper dinner only later... And I am so glad tt my clique has a new topic to share and discuss about... *grinz* Shall never look at them in the same light again... Ever... Can really let loose everything to them, no need to feel shy liao!!!

And it's one more topic to gush and giggle about over our jugs of vodka-something...

Music&Lyrics and Indonesian Food

Well well,

I knew we were gg to watch Music&Lyrics... But tt movie was sooooooo nice!!! And the songs though a lil tacky, were so catchy, I am tempted to buy the soundtrack... Haha!! In the first place, I do quite like Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore... The girl who acted as Cora also quite cute... Think she can be the next Britney Spears since Brit is facing so much trouble now...

Went to eat at Riverside Point after tt... Indonesian food...

All my friends know I dun quite like to eat this kind of cuisine but there we were... But it wasn't so bad afterall... Quite nice actually... Eat until damn full lah!! Even if I had Haagen Daaz ice cream in front of me, doubt I can find a space for it in my tummy...

Doing project now with Crystal... Just now Derrick was here and he so kaypoh, want to interview me... haha!! He better than any girl at starting a bitching session lor!! Pei fu... He being Crystal's bf, I hope he passed the Interview and gets a place at NBS... Then we all can hang out sometimes in school... =)

Itchy hand of mine thinking of getting more skins for my blog... haha! Just for fun... Every other day change skin...!!! Depend on mood all tt... hehe!!!

OK, the project would most prob be based on Excessive sleepiness... Just like me... I think they should case study me.

New-er Skin

Ok, decided on this one in the end... More dreamy kind, can relax and bitch and say evil things w/o thinking tt the skin is too cute for it or something...

Running late, hope SL isnt the kind tt cant wait.

Stupid Taggie

Argh!!!

Dunnoe what to do with my tagboard... People cant see what they are typing... Crystal suggested gg website change but nothing would change tt!!!

Hate Javascript... stupid thing... Someone help me!!!!

New Skin

Haha!! I know it sounds very "erm..." coming from me BUT

I LOVE MY NEW SKIN!!!

All u girls rem how my previous skin was all grey and stuff?? I quite like the pic and it was titled Shakespeare In Love but I love this new one!! Bright Bright BRIGHT!!!

I think I will blog and blog and blog the next few days just so I can remove the previous blog entries from the sad sad past... Time really makes a difference man!! Almost 1 year and I feel so different...

Aiyoh!! Totally cannot stand it... Endurance, Risk and LOVE!! Like so full of vitality!!
*squealz*

Anyway, I need to zzz le... If not tml SL will be having dinner with a panda... Muackz!!

Hello Old Friend!!

Hello old friend,

it's been a year!! Thanks to u, I realised something last year... It's always tt time of the month tt I think of him so after attributing the mood swings and crying fits to hormones, I got better... My mum laughed when I said tt I only miss him coz my period is coming!! haha!!

Well, he's nice and I hope he's doing well... Not tt he will see this... =)

But anyway, back to u my old friend...

I had a sudden inspiration to see u again so, get ready, coz I expect I will have a lot to say in the coming weeks!! 4 more weeks to exams!! And u, my dear friend, are gg to accompany me through this tedious period of revision!!!

First things first, I made some new friends recently... a certain J and SL... warm welcome to them although I think I just got the boot from J... nevertheless, he has a nice enough bod so I shall forgive him.. haha!! Superficial me... And SL... shall find out more about him tml!

Feeling a bit nervous about spending close to 6 hours with him... He planned the day like military operation... 3 at city hall to watch movie at Suntec. Title of movie to be advised and if i dun like it, apparently i get to be treated to Haagen Daaz ice cream the next time I see him...

Dinner will finish at ard 8 plus so tt i will have enough time to go back hall and prob rest by 10... *he makes me sound like a kid, but nvm*

And, yes, i think i want to change blog skin... again... haha!! Want something bright and cheery coz I have walked out of the shadow of 2006... And although 2007 hasn't brought anything new and exciting (J was supposed to be, but then... Haiz...), so nvm... Better things await me!!

Izzy talked about Dan today and I think tt yah, maybe she is right... And I know my dear girl not bad at judging ppl so, I trust her wits to protect her... And I guess yah, he really was nice tt 2nd mambo night...

OK, blogskin shopping now... =)