Thoughts for the day

Skipped out of school today and went to Marina Square...

Bought myself a Strawberry Body Polish from BodyShop.. Was on offer and now I smell really fruity and sweet!!! Feel like biting my own arm see will be as sweet and juicy as a real strawberry or not. Hurhur... Sorry, lame.

Had Burger King for lunch, the free Oreo wafersticks still here with me, C's one also... I realised it had been a while since I last ate onion rings... But as always, I couldn't finish my food... Must try to expand my stomach space a bit...

Had Haagen Daaz ice cream for dessert... COOKIE CRUNCH!!! Drank a lot of water also then in the end I kept visiting the toilet... Haiz... Maybe my stomach is big so squeezed my bladder to just small corner so it cannot store as much... Haiz, dunno whether will have incontinence problem when I'm old...

Bought tix to I NOW PRONOUNCE YOU CHUCK AND LARRY but had an hour to kill so C and I went to play pool... I think, considering I have not played pool for donkey years, not too bad lah...

And the movie was really funny!!! Laugh from start to end... BUt got touching parts also... When Larry decided to clear the wardrobe of his late wife's belongings, it was like "Waaaaa........" But then it was only for like 10sec then the funny things started again... I think watch on weekday ok lah, but not worth it if watch as Midnight... Ratings: 3.5/5.0

Then came back to JP in time to take Dav's car back to hall!!! Woohoo!!! Then just now OMC meeting also chop-chop finish... Just a matter of time before I decide to turn my attention to Venus' lect notes and readings... I HATE READINGS!!!! I USED TO LOVE TO READ BUT I THINK I HATE IT NOW!!! GIVE ME SOME BRAINLESS STUFF TO READ MAN!!!

Oh yah... today C and I were talking on the train and I said I feel like eating ice cream... Then C asked what kind of ice cream I want to eat... I pondered over the question a while and said," uhm... cold ones?" C just kept laughing and shaking, like trying to control and I realised it was a bit dumb of me but hey, I made C laugh so not too bad right? C's birthday present lor!!

I think I really must get the PINK GRAPEFRUIT body lotion from BodyShop next time I go, coz I realise my bottle finishing le... Had to hit it on the table just now to get the lotion to come out...

Ok, back to Studying!!!

Does He Love You?

Song by Rilo Kiley, damn great vocals... I wish I could sound as sappy as her w/o coming across as poser... haha!

A little too drama for some but the presentation was like, "Wow!" And it really blew my mind when the whole story unravelled itself through those simple verses. It hit me right in the middle of my chest.


Does He Love You? Rilo Kiley

Get a real job
Keep the wind to your back and the sun on your face
All the immediate unknowns are better than knowing this tired and lonely fate.

Does he love you?
Does he love you?
Will he hold your tiny face in his hands?

I guess it's spring; I didn't know
It's always seventy-five with no meltin' snow
A married man, he visits me
I recieved his letters in the mail twice a week

And I think he loves me
and when he leaves her
he's coming out to California

I guess it all worked out
There's a ring on your finger and the baby's due out

You share a place by the park and run a shop for antiques downtown
And he loves you, yeah he loves you, and the two of you will soon become three
And he loves you, even though you used to say you were flawed if you weren't free

Let's not forget ourselves good friend
You and I were almost dead
And you're better off for leavin'
Yeah you're better off for leavin'

Late at night, I get the phone
You're at the shop sobbin' all alone
Your confession is coming out
You only married him, you felt your time was running out

But now you love him, and your baby
At last you are complete
But he's distant and you found him on the phone pleading saying
'baby I love you and I'll leave her and I'm comin' out to California'

Let's not forget ourselves good friend
I am flawed if I'm not free
and your husband will never leave you, he will never leave you for me

Good Day

Good afternoon Aki!!

You have many things to do:
Finish Venus' proofreading and then you have a quiz on Friday tt you haven't studied for yet.

Too many things to do babe!!

Please give me strength

I pray to be given the strength, the courage and assurance that what I am doing is right. I pray tt my walls don't crumble under his kind words, I pray tt I will not be led into a potential mess.

I pray tt my decision is right and tt I will not live to regret it. Life is too short for regrets, and also too short to miss out on true love. I pray tt I didn't just miss it.

I pray tt I am made of steel and heartless. I don't want to feel anymore.

I just can't

I'm sorry I just can't...

And I won't think about it coz it won't do me any good. I am a strong girl, have always been and will always be... Sometimes the heart needs walls. I think I need them now.

I will have better days, but just not today. I pray for tomorrow to come and take today away.

Please make things ok.

Feeling Emo

Emo-moment...

Song of the moment: When you're Gone-Avril Lavigne

I miss my mama... It almost broke my heart when mama said she really miss us and feel like giving us a hug... We laughed it off, saying we have become quite thin now and she'll find it uncomfortable when she squeezes us...

I miss her, I want her here with me too. I want to whine and ask her to do things for me too... I want to hug her shrinking frame and know tt she'll always be here. I want her back home.

So Diu Lian

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SO DIU LIAN!!!

OMG, why was i so dumb... now maybe i should just throw myself out of the window... but 4th floor jump down i think i will become crippled only... ARGH!!!!

Boohoo!!!

So dumb...

How Do Men See ME?!

Did the quiz posted on ai ren's blog... Funny...

Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily

How Do Men See You?

Feeling fat

I am feeling fat today... Not really FAT per se but a bit Bloated none the less... Feeling super bloated all the time...

Like just now, not hungry leh but i know i must eat if not later tonight i will be hungry and then i will want to eat at such a late hours some more and then tml morning I will end up with a big big tummy... So i ate... And JY wanted bubble tea with her subway and so i couldnt resist too and am now nursing my bubble tea too...

I feel FAT.

When will i stop feeling fat? When I am no longer fat.

And I think I have to stop blogging all the time about every single tinge of bad emotions i have... If not i see my blog i also sian. But tt doesn't mean I dun feel fat already. I still do.

Over the weekend when i wasn't feeling well, it felt really good when tt nauseous feeling came to me. it was like: "Oh yes, puke it out! Puke it out! PUKE IT OUT!!!"
It almost feels like a cleansing ritual, feels really good. And yes, my period just finished so the nauseous feeling isn't a matter of concern. Just a silly tummy bug i think... But when I feel like vomitting I dun even try to stop, I sort of want it to come.

And my full appetite isn't back yet. It's early but I feel sleepy already.

TOASTED

I think I am gg to crash soon... Time seems to fly and it's w/o me knowing... I feel like I am rushing all the time and I can't seem to slow down at all... Feel super duper tired and thank god i still have the sense of urgency to complete things tt need to be done.

I try to force myself to relax and not panic and tt everything will work out, which so far it is... BUT i just feel like i am gg to crash from the lack of rest and ME-TIME... I wanna hide and hibernate and play The Sims 2 everyday... I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!