Too fast or too slow?

Who is to say that things are progressing too fast or too slow?? What is too fast?? What is too slow?? Can time really be a reliable measure as to how fast or slow things should progress?? Or is it based on the judgement of those around you??

Today Crystal and I were just talking in school... Slack mood and all... We got talking about, well, the usual stuffs... Which, well, as usual, led to the topic of RELATIONSHIPS.

So.

How fast is too fast between a couple?? Is there really a just nice pace that a couple should progress?? I don't know leh. I seriously don't think so. Coz if time was a good gauge, then why couples who were friends for a long time still break up (not all lah, some)? And some couples only got to know each other for 6 months then GET MARRIED but are still happy together?? There is no exact benchmark to say for e.g. 3 months-hold hands, 6 months-first kiss, 9months-meet parents etc...

Oooh, but I read in HER WORLD tt if he doesn't bring you to meet his parents after being together with you for more than 6 months then WARNING BELLS should go off... Supposedly the guy either has no respect for u, intends to ditch u in the long run and is commitment-phobic... tt's what they say.

But, I digress.

Yah, so there is no tried-and-tested route for couples to progress in a relationship, or like guidelines for becoming from friends to a couple... I think, it's between the 2 parties. What they think they are comfortable with and how intense their feelings are...

And Crystal is, as I have said this afternoon, is my epitome of a success story... Please lah, Derrick is nice, I think she made a right choice back then and I hope I can be like you too... =)

November

Updated my calendar last night...

It is so bloody scary how full the November page looks!! Every other day I have something to hand in or a paper to sit for all the way until 21st of the month... So scary can??

I just want tml to come quickly and enjoy this last weekend before the hell starts again next week... Can't believe 1 semester is ending already so fast... Lamenting tt time pass too fast for me to finish the work but at the same time, there was a point in time when I felt the sem won't end... Sigh!

Blanket

I see myself under a blanket, warm and seperated from the rest of the world, with nothing in my mind except the thought that the sound of the rain is so peaceful...

I hide under the blanket, hoping tt it will protect me from the feelings of loss and guilt and curiosity... Loss of what was once familiar, guilt of letting go and curious about what lies ahead...

I want time to stop. I want to stay here.

Jeans or Shoes?

Should I buy a pair of new Levi's jeans or a new pair of flat shoes?? At the moment I only have heels but no flats so thought of buying one but due to my inferiority complex about my height, I dunnoe whether I will wear the flats often... BUT I feel like buying the Copper Jeans coz PL has a pair and I think it looks really nice but I dunnoe whether I will wear it often too coz now a days weather a bit hot.. Haiz...

Tired from donating blood yesterday and coz my period is coming... Sian... MOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thumping headache!!! Bleh!!!

Ruz Bear

Talking to Ruz now and he must be really bored... Well, let me blog about him so he might feel more cheered when he reads my blog.

Was saying we should ALL meet up maybe on a weekend coz he and James working what. But I reminded him tt have to check with the girls coz see whether they willing to give up a weekend evening for them mah... Maybe Ruz and James not worth the weekend evening right??

This it what he said.

|RuZ| I'm not ill anymore, I'm now Kim Jong 2 の発言:
im tellin u we are
|RuZ| I'm not ill anymore, I'm now Kim Jong 2 の発言:
we're like naked flame to sparkles, water in a tank, darkness in a darkroom
|RuZ| I'm not ill anymore, I'm now Kim Jong 2 の発言:
we're the ESSENTIALS!!!!


Really bloody thick-skin, this one... Never changes... Still my good ol' bro. =)

Thoughts for the day

Skipped out of school today and went to Marina Square...

Bought myself a Strawberry Body Polish from BodyShop.. Was on offer and now I smell really fruity and sweet!!! Feel like biting my own arm see will be as sweet and juicy as a real strawberry or not. Hurhur... Sorry, lame.

Had Burger King for lunch, the free Oreo wafersticks still here with me, C's one also... I realised it had been a while since I last ate onion rings... But as always, I couldn't finish my food... Must try to expand my stomach space a bit...

Had Haagen Daaz ice cream for dessert... COOKIE CRUNCH!!! Drank a lot of water also then in the end I kept visiting the toilet... Haiz... Maybe my stomach is big so squeezed my bladder to just small corner so it cannot store as much... Haiz, dunno whether will have incontinence problem when I'm old...

Bought tix to I NOW PRONOUNCE YOU CHUCK AND LARRY but had an hour to kill so C and I went to play pool... I think, considering I have not played pool for donkey years, not too bad lah...

And the movie was really funny!!! Laugh from start to end... BUt got touching parts also... When Larry decided to clear the wardrobe of his late wife's belongings, it was like "Waaaaa........" But then it was only for like 10sec then the funny things started again... I think watch on weekday ok lah, but not worth it if watch as Midnight... Ratings: 3.5/5.0

Then came back to JP in time to take Dav's car back to hall!!! Woohoo!!! Then just now OMC meeting also chop-chop finish... Just a matter of time before I decide to turn my attention to Venus' lect notes and readings... I HATE READINGS!!!! I USED TO LOVE TO READ BUT I THINK I HATE IT NOW!!! GIVE ME SOME BRAINLESS STUFF TO READ MAN!!!

Oh yah... today C and I were talking on the train and I said I feel like eating ice cream... Then C asked what kind of ice cream I want to eat... I pondered over the question a while and said," uhm... cold ones?" C just kept laughing and shaking, like trying to control and I realised it was a bit dumb of me but hey, I made C laugh so not too bad right? C's birthday present lor!!

I think I really must get the PINK GRAPEFRUIT body lotion from BodyShop next time I go, coz I realise my bottle finishing le... Had to hit it on the table just now to get the lotion to come out...

Ok, back to Studying!!!

Does He Love You?

Song by Rilo Kiley, damn great vocals... I wish I could sound as sappy as her w/o coming across as poser... haha!

A little too drama for some but the presentation was like, "Wow!" And it really blew my mind when the whole story unravelled itself through those simple verses. It hit me right in the middle of my chest.


Does He Love You? Rilo Kiley

Get a real job
Keep the wind to your back and the sun on your face
All the immediate unknowns are better than knowing this tired and lonely fate.

Does he love you?
Does he love you?
Will he hold your tiny face in his hands?

I guess it's spring; I didn't know
It's always seventy-five with no meltin' snow
A married man, he visits me
I recieved his letters in the mail twice a week

And I think he loves me
and when he leaves her
he's coming out to California

I guess it all worked out
There's a ring on your finger and the baby's due out

You share a place by the park and run a shop for antiques downtown
And he loves you, yeah he loves you, and the two of you will soon become three
And he loves you, even though you used to say you were flawed if you weren't free

Let's not forget ourselves good friend
You and I were almost dead
And you're better off for leavin'
Yeah you're better off for leavin'

Late at night, I get the phone
You're at the shop sobbin' all alone
Your confession is coming out
You only married him, you felt your time was running out

But now you love him, and your baby
At last you are complete
But he's distant and you found him on the phone pleading saying
'baby I love you and I'll leave her and I'm comin' out to California'

Let's not forget ourselves good friend
I am flawed if I'm not free
and your husband will never leave you, he will never leave you for me

Good Day

Good afternoon Aki!!

You have many things to do:
Finish Venus' proofreading and then you have a quiz on Friday tt you haven't studied for yet.

Too many things to do babe!!

Please give me strength

I pray to be given the strength, the courage and assurance that what I am doing is right. I pray tt my walls don't crumble under his kind words, I pray tt I will not be led into a potential mess.

I pray tt my decision is right and tt I will not live to regret it. Life is too short for regrets, and also too short to miss out on true love. I pray tt I didn't just miss it.

I pray tt I am made of steel and heartless. I don't want to feel anymore.

I just can't

I'm sorry I just can't...

And I won't think about it coz it won't do me any good. I am a strong girl, have always been and will always be... Sometimes the heart needs walls. I think I need them now.

I will have better days, but just not today. I pray for tomorrow to come and take today away.

Please make things ok.