Day 8 without him

Today, I went for tuition but arrived at Tracy's place with a throbbing head... I had a permanent frown on my forehead and I couldn't concentrate on what I wanted to do with her today. Then I thought it will go away after a while but it didn't!!

I hate headaches. Flu still not too bad leh but a headache is the worst!! Can't think... Flu still can move about and do some work. In the end, I sat in school trying to do my work but left for home just before 5 coz I couldn't take it anymore... Argh!!!

Good things tt happened today (before the onset of the headache):
(1) Changed my school file to a PINK one with plastic pockets!
(2) Found Farhanah's Science mock papers answer sheet.
(3) Realised tt my hair grows quite fast.

Bad things tt happened today:
(1) Headache

Things I have to do later:
(1) Finish up my Spanish work
(2) Attempt Tutorial 4 for Stats

I predict another headache setting in once I managed to get down to doing task number 2. SPSS has been re-downloaded and I feel happy about it but having no excuse not to do work is Argh!! Have just taken painkillers for the head so I shall see how long I can last later.

Hasta Luego!

Day 6 without him

Hehe!!! I received my birhday present today!!! I totally TOTALLY love my new sneakers. Thank you very much to Yuwen, Huiyun, Limei, Davina, Jiaying, Lixuan, Shiling and Sammy for this wonderful present. Like I said earlier in my smses to u all, I will wear this all over Europe!!!

Went to WineBar and then to Modesto's with Felix, Weichuen and Fernn last night. Didn't reach home very very late lah, but still late, so I was surprised with myself when I managed to wake up for school. And my mum was at home so she made sure I woke up for school also. Spanish was fun!! Now I know what Weichuen was talking about when he said "Creo que..."

Then went to Orchard to meet Yuwen but I bumped into Lixuan and Alina before tt. Ate my lunch and waited for Yuwen to come. She was a sight!!! Kinda used to seeing her in her work clothes so seeing her in tee and denim skirt was like old times again. But she still looked like she haven'T graduated from school yet. Hahahaha!!!

Now, I am just waiting for dinner to be served... Aya is cooking dinner tonight. So secretive, dun tell us what she's cooking and also say we cannot go in and see... But seems like dinner is almost done..

Oh yah, went to deliver mooncakes to Adam's parents on Thursday... Goodwood Park Hotel D24 Durian Paste mooncakes. But I only bought 2 pcs.. Bo $$, haha!! It wasn't expensive lah, for 2 pcs it's affordable but 4 pcs might be a bit too much ah... But auntie sms-ed me the next day to say they have tried them and like them so GREAT!!!

Alright, shall go dinner now. =)

Day 2 without him

Day 2 went very well, surprise surprise!!

I think because a few things brightened up my day..
(1) Fernn sent email to say she can get 25% off the Flyer tickets so ask if we are interested.
(2) Weichuen has organised the first leg of the Europe tour from London to Barcelona.
(3) Peiling say she can lend me her pig-liver-red boots if I want for my Eurotrip
(4) Shopping confirmed on Saturday
(5) Caught up on Venus' textbook readings

So actually my day went pretty well. Did some exercises at home also. Couldn't go jog coz of the bad weather. The only thing tt spoilt it was the faulty SPSS. It simply refuses to work. Argh!!! So I am gg to tutorial tml blindly, with no attempts made on the questions.

September is a crazy month. Testing, quizzes, presentation... I can live through it de!!!

Day 1 without him

Alright, this is Day 1 w/o him. Technically, we still had some contact but yah, he's physically not here so I do miss him.

He smsed me twice from Zurich using the public phone there... But there was no number for me to reply to so I just sms-ed his local number. And he sent another reply using the public phone again.

Then just now, he has arrived. I know I can't sms him too much, not even as and when I want. But it feels comforting to know tt I can reach him if I wanted to. Tt I still have a way to contact him, but must rem the time difference...

Fernn brightened my day with confirmation of our London flights. We are taking SQ A380 to Heathrow!!! Tt is a hi-light by itself lah... Will take lots of pictures and blog about my trip when it happens. I think I will bring a diary with me, a journal, whatever...

I hope the list of cities come out soon so tt I can go read up before we leave also. The confirmed list. Bah!! I can't help but wait...

Thank you!!

Dear all who came to my party at Boiler Room, thank you!!!

I had a super duper great time there although I dun know about u guys... I felt like dying the next morning coz my head was swimming and it was woozy from too much alcohol. But really leh, super high and the music was good too. Plus, there were all of you there too so really, IT WAS DAMN FUN LAH!!!

Hi-lights:

(1) Izyan getting super high coz it was her first time drinking alcohol.
(2) Playing games with Limei.
(3) Yuwen gave me the evil concoction to drink.
(4) Limei sharing the drink with me.
(5) Oooh the CAKE!!!
(6) Cam-whoring.
(7) Dancing near the stage with everyone (Patrick was really good tt night or is it just the drinks?)
(8) Puking in the taxi
(9) Adam helping me to brush my teeth
(10) I puked again.
(11) Adam gave up and just made me gurgle (i think) and didn't brush my teeth

Well, there were many more MOMENTS I believe but there a few things I wish I had done.

(1) Spent more time with Bestie. In the end she sort of became on toilet-duty.
(2) Take photos with Yi Ling and Fernn!! But at least I got to hug them and be introduced to Timothy.
(3) Drank less

Birthday present from Adam was a red iPod Nano. Uploaded my birthday photos into the iPod also so that I can see them anytime. He helped me set it up on my iTunes also.

Sunday had buffet dinner with my relatives. Happy Birthday to Mummy and Happy Belated Birthday to Kelvin kor!! The food was good although Samantha jie and Jasmine seemed to think otherwise. It was good enough for me!!

Opponent Process Theory

Well, I am trying to rationalise this "feeling" in me with the Opponent Process Theory. I don't think I am getting it exactly right but the gist of it is the same I guess...

I am having this sinking feeling. Anxiety about my birthday party. Don't ask me why anxiety. I don't know why either. I only just managed to pinpoint a term to describe this feeling in me as anxiety. I am not sure anxious about what either. After so many years of quiet birthday celebrations with my various cliques, gathering everyone in one location and doing the whole celebration thing in a club might be the factor. The sudden change is not sitting well with me I think. And the added factor of the impending GP deadlines that just keep coming, coming and coming. Some days I really don't want to think of Catherine and her comments.

Anyway, the signs I have been having are breathlessness, nausea (at weird moments like while waiting for the MRT door to open), a heavy dull throb in my chest and fitful sleep patterns. My 2-week long cough might be psychosomatic too. Initially I thought I wake up in the night because of my cough but I realise last night, I wasn't coughing when I woke up. I just woke up for no reason.

So then again, how does the Opponent Process Theory apply here??

Maybe I was initially very excited about having my bday celebrations with everyone at St James (a-process) and then now tt ard a week has passed since the initial planning, the countering b-process has kicked in thus making me feel the opposite of excitement... which is DREAD.

I know I am weird but this is what I really feel. Dread. I am afraid of the event really taking place only to result in disappointment and boredom.

But I dunno how to tell anyone about it. Coz if someone had told me that he/she dreads his/her bday party, I would just think tt person is silly. But tt is exactly what I am feeling. I dun want it to fall flat coz tt is not how I want to remember my bday.

Argh.

Ways to supplement my Eurotrip Budget

I have been trying to think of ways to supplement my Eurotrip Budget. These are just some of the ways that I thought of just now...

(1) Buy 4D and Toto everyweek
(2) Take on just one more tuition assignment
(3) Eat less outside, eat more at home
(4) Take on part-time work immediately after exams for that 1 week before we fly

Basically, not much of helpful things here. =(

Birthday Week!

Basically, my birthday is next Tuesday, still a whole week away but coz school was so sian today, I decided to encourage myself with thoughts about my birthday celebrations. For one thing, it is already the end of Monday and so Tuesday is going to come around soon.

I suggested to Adam that Friday night would be good for my bday dinner. But before tt, thinking whether Di will have time for lunch on Friday.

Saturday sleep in and eat well to prepare for the party at night. So happy that RAINBOW is making the effort to come and celebrate for me. It used to be so easy back in hall but even now when we are living in seperate places, we still stand together!! And I know they are planning something but I just dunno what! Hehe... And have to appreciate their straightforward "What do you want for your birthday?"

Aya and Ami will be coming too... Don't quite know whether it will be good or a bad move... What if I really get roaring drunk then so UNGLAM can?!?!?! But I have never clubbed with Aya before so it should be a good experience. Plus I know she hardly clubs so there!!

And Di too, know she has been busy with work so it will be good to see her. PLUS her bday present still with me so it will be a whole month late!! Sorry~!!

Then on Sunday we'll be having a buffet dinner with Mummy and my cousins! So exciting!! I guess sharing one's bday with a relative has its perks too!! Adam's coming so they can gawk at him like he's an animal at the zoo!

I seriously don't feel much - age is just a number... I think I kinda stopped getting the feeling that I was getting older around the time I was 15. Coz moving on from Sec 3 to Sec 4, I really didn't feel much. And in a blink of the eye, I had passed Polytechnic and soon I will be graduating too. It's ok, I dun really want to feel the ageing process.

And I have one more thing to look forward to! Europe trip in December!!! On budget but I am so glad mama agreed to let me take out my fixed deposit so that I can go!! Anyway, Fernn will be booking the tickets later this week also... It is coming true!! So egg-cited (to quote HY)...

I feel happy coz after I got to know him, I have started to experience a lot of things. I have never been one for birthday parties but suddenly he is helping me throw one. And his friends are able to bring us around in Europe and they are such a fun bunch... Seriously, if I had said I want to go with Limei they all I think mama won't let me go coz she will worry about us gg as an all-girls group. =( But there will come a time when we can all go somewhere together to relax!!

Twisted Twister

We played Twister on Sunday!!! It was supposed to be a mahjong session but because I had so much fun playing Twister at the Esplanade with Calvin during FOC, I decided to bring the game over to Adam's place. So we basically had a warm-up with Twister before settling down to play mahjong...

As you can tell, we were all out to sabo each other the moment the game started. No such thing as being shy or beginners... We were ready to get entangled!!
Oh, Calvin and I had a wager at the Esplanade that the loser will be drawn on the limbs by the winner with a permanent marker. Adam gamely went to ask his mother for a red lipstick so that we could do something similar. But cause we were in the comfort of his home, it was decided that it was safe enough to draw on faces... We all crowded in the toilet after that to clean up with my make-up remover lah!!!

This is the shot of him being the dodgy geomancer... Feng shui master my ass!

No bad right? I still remembered how to write "pig" in chinese.

We played rough,　sitting on each other, butting each other off the mat... It was a WORKOUT!! Fernn's blue blouse had a collar and the collar was drenched mind you!! Adam ripped his earlier pair of shorts while playing the game so he went to change into this ridiculously short pair of FBTs which were bright yellow!!

For more butt shots, check out the photos on Facebook sisters!! Wanted to blog about my Singfest Sunday also but heck, I am too lazy to. Just check out the action on FB too. =)

Back to school!!

I never thought I would ever say this in my lifetime but yes, I am glad to be back in school!! After those months of working and teaching tuition, it feels good to be back in school and basically having a less hectic lifestyle. My days start late and end late. It's alright, really... even with tuition slotted in, my days end by 7 in the evening, it's the travelling that I find taxing...

Finally worked out what is the best way to maintain my transport fees... Buy train concession but dun buy for bus. Coz one trip from Boon Lay to school is about 89cents and in 4 weeks, tt would amount to only about $29. Add in additional $10 bus fare for tuition, it's still alright to top up my ezlink just for bus...

As for my timetable, not perfect but manageable... I hope this sem pass by like a breeze...