Feeling Emo

Emo-moment...

Song of the moment: When you're Gone-Avril Lavigne

I miss my mama... It almost broke my heart when mama said she really miss us and feel like giving us a hug... We laughed it off, saying we have become quite thin now and she'll find it uncomfortable when she squeezes us...

I miss her, I want her here with me too. I want to whine and ask her to do things for me too... I want to hug her shrinking frame and know tt she'll always be here. I want her back home.

So Diu Lian

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SO DIU LIAN!!!

OMG, why was i so dumb... now maybe i should just throw myself out of the window... but 4th floor jump down i think i will become crippled only... ARGH!!!!

Boohoo!!!

So dumb...

How Do Men See ME?!

Did the quiz posted on ai ren's blog... Funny...

Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily

How Do Men See You?

Feeling fat

I am feeling fat today... Not really FAT per se but a bit Bloated none the less... Feeling super bloated all the time...

Like just now, not hungry leh but i know i must eat if not later tonight i will be hungry and then i will want to eat at such a late hours some more and then tml morning I will end up with a big big tummy... So i ate... And JY wanted bubble tea with her subway and so i couldnt resist too and am now nursing my bubble tea too...

I feel FAT.

When will i stop feeling fat? When I am no longer fat.

And I think I have to stop blogging all the time about every single tinge of bad emotions i have... If not i see my blog i also sian. But tt doesn't mean I dun feel fat already. I still do.

Over the weekend when i wasn't feeling well, it felt really good when tt nauseous feeling came to me. it was like: "Oh yes, puke it out! Puke it out! PUKE IT OUT!!!"
It almost feels like a cleansing ritual, feels really good. And yes, my period just finished so the nauseous feeling isn't a matter of concern. Just a silly tummy bug i think... But when I feel like vomitting I dun even try to stop, I sort of want it to come.

And my full appetite isn't back yet. It's early but I feel sleepy already.

TOASTED

I think I am gg to crash soon... Time seems to fly and it's w/o me knowing... I feel like I am rushing all the time and I can't seem to slow down at all... Feel super duper tired and thank god i still have the sense of urgency to complete things tt need to be done.

I try to force myself to relax and not panic and tt everything will work out, which so far it is... BUT i just feel like i am gg to crash from the lack of rest and ME-TIME... I wanna hide and hibernate and play The Sims 2 everyday... I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!

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OMG, it was the best local movie I have ever watched in my whole life!!!! I seriously don't mind watching it again, maybe buy the DVD for my mama to watch. I think she will also cry when she watch it... Not just because it is touching but I think my mama miss this place that she calls home too...

I cried buckets near the end and felt really dehydrated because I didn't drink the Sprite much after I got too engrossed in the movie... Listening to the dialogue in Hokkien and finding tt I can understand most of them w/o reading the subtitles made me feel so proud can?? Feel like a true Singaporean!! But the dialogue was mostly simple and straightforward...

Listening to the aunties talk loudly and in Hokkien reminds me of when my mama was still living here with us and the way she used to joke and talk with my 2 aunties... Especially the dirty jokes tt my aunties told each other and made my mama laugh so hard tt her face turns red, cannot open her eyes and her hand is pressed to her chest as though she needs tt hand to hold her body up if not she will end up rolling on the floor laughing...

I think I will miss Singapore more than I miss Japan where ever I may go. I miss my mama too. I love my home and everything tt this place gave me.

Birthday celebrations!!

Thank you all who celebrated my birthday with me in the various ways!!! Thanks Di for the fabulous T-shirt, the SISTERS for the balloon girl and the pretty pretty watch!!! Besides these, I also received a Body Shop Cranberry Bath set and a Shiseido make-up palette.

This picture is courtesy of Davina... I know her blog put this up le but I want also mah! And it's my birthday mah!!! And somehow, I can see tt I was so happy tt day tt I was quite vain... Look at some of the poses, I look a bit san ba... Damn, must be the wine plus exhilaration!!!

These are the ppl who tried to bluff me say the balloon girl is my only birthday present from them. Please lah, I will believe you all so stingy one meh?? Love you girls a lot and it was really nice to just chill out like tt...

Love the food and ambience... And I think it was a really nice perk to not have to pay GST and Service Charge... All nett prices!!! Must go again... I want to order the Dory Fish or the Gratin Chicken next round... And the wine was SUPERB!!!

After tt was the mahjong session at my house... hahahaha!!! Muackz Muackz Muackz... Can tell tt I'm still giddy from the happiness of turning 22 right? Actually, AGE IS BUT A NUMBER!!! I totally couldn't take it when my father say I become auntie already... What does tt make him then?

Who won? hehehe...

I also received many well wishes on this special day from so many ppl... Someone even sang and recorded birthday song for me can?! Feel like I'm on the top of the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Change in Address

I have changed my address. Nice right? Just thought of it and since HY say dun change skin, then change address lor... please update ur links.

The previous address like some kind of cryptic code, with numbers and symbols and what nots... Really looking forward to the dinner LATER at Bliss with the SISTAS... My god, I can't sleep...

Listening to Ai Ru Chao Shui now... Haiz... So blardy nice...

Random: I think I am putting in so much effort in trying to make my blog look nicer because I am putting off doing actual work. hahahaha!!! But I got NOTHING IMPORTANT to do tonight... Thank God!!!

Sleepy

Sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy...

GAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGAGA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dinner with Bestie

Thanks D for the lovely dinner and the prezzie. Love the print on the tee.

Maybe I was a bit emo about the "left-behind" thingy but it was just a feeling and thought tt I have. =) Glad tt you are enjoying urself at ur new job and I know u are tired but thanks for taking time out for me.

And yes, we will definitely meet soon. Love you loads D.