Same as Ai Ren

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle. You know that love isn't like a greeting card... Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings. You are the best of both worlds Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious. Almost any guy can find balance with you.

Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

Seriously, I am sucker for these kind of online tests... But then again, some of the questions are not good at all... as in according to what "Psychological Testing" has taught me, some of the questions are double-barreled and all... Not very good test questions... But I still like to do them! hahahahahaha!!!

Very very FREE

This is the first Monday that I do not have to teach tuition... A bit lost and don't know what to do with the extra time that I have on hand... Haiz... And the weather is cooling, very tempting for a nap but i am not really a nap-person...

Just now Davina say coming back to accompany me. Then she breezed into the room only to break my heart by saying she gg out to eat at ICHIBAN SUSHI and so will not be in hall.. *boohoo* Nobody around to celebrate the end of HG101 Project with me... So sad.

Finally feel that maybe I have been so preoccupied with the other things I had in life that now, alone in my room, I can feel this loneliness sort of threatening to wash over me... I think tuition really filled up a lot of my free time so now tt exams are over and there's no more kids to teach, I feel lost... I rem I used to pack my tuition to the point tt, weekdays, I really had no time for anything else... It's like the empty nest syndrome... haha.

Not like I really have nothing to do. Just no motivation to do them on this particular Monday...

I did a Psychological test today where I was supposed to fill in the blanks to complete several statements. I think I fear being forgotten. I fear being left behind. I fear being kept in the dark. I fear having to face a situation whereby I have to put up walls and fight back. All these flashed through my mind while I was completing that test.

What do I want? I want to fly.

Oo-Oku

I just finished watching Oo-Oku ＜大奥＞ on crunchyroll... Wah! I really like this movie leh... I think if u all free should go and watch also. 4 parts to it and about 2 hours long lah... VERY GOOD!! And there is subtitles so u all can understand. The translation is not full though, as in, does not reflect the nuances of the language very well...



Main character is Nakayama Yukie who acts as Ejima, the Mistress of the Palace. She is the highest ranking maid beside Gekkoin, the mother of the current Shogun (who is also very cute, 5 years old only!). Then got all the POISONOUS ppl who are jealous of her and try to harm her. But Ejima is the loyal and smart maid beside her who will risk her life to protect her mistress if need be...



The kimono collection inside is like WAH!!! But i tell u, they must have suffered while filming... Coz the full set of kimono is laready so heavy PLUS they had to put on tt wig...



I took a picture at the Corridor of Bells when i went to visit Kyoto with Aya but seeing it again in the movie was still overwhelming.

The knot has been untied

I feel so much better.

The knot that has been stuck in me has been untied. I know I was told to wait and see but I think I really like being carefree and don't like living with uncertainty and ambiguity so I did what my best friend adviced and also what she said I will normally do: ask upfront.

So I finally did. And I didn't want to play tt "see who msg who first" game coz I don't like playing games and I want it to be known tt I am sincere and true about my thoughts and feelings. So yes, I msged first and yes, I finally said everything tt needed to be said and asked everything tt needed to be answered.

And I have received satisfaction in tt I no longer live with tt uncertain grey cloud above my head and I think I can live with tt...

Ambivalence wasn't from him but from life itself I guess... Last week was good and this week wasn't. It's life. But I guess I know for certain now tt yes, I still like being upfront and carefree. I am a free-spirit and I want to stay tt way. I don't want to be trapped by uncertainty and I like doing things as I like.

I own myself and I will never allow anyone to bind my emotions and moods! =)

hot Hot HOT

OMG, doing project now in school but totally enjoyed myself, why?

Because, there was this really HOT angmoh guy sitting at the table beside ours!!! He is so HOT!! Like Peiling said, he looks like Chris Evans, the guy who acted as the HUMAN TORCH in FANTASTIC FOUR!!! Yes, he is so hot, he is really like a human torch. *sizzle*

He was so nice, came over to ask if we need to use the power point coz he and his friends were using both the power points that are between the tables. We said we were fine for now. Then, when we really needed the power points, I went over to ask the guy if we could use one of the power points. He was so nice about it and WAH!!! Look into his eyes will DROWN leh!!! He so CUTE!!!

Tall and lanky, like Adam from Maroon 5... Confirm plus guarantee he will look good in a suit! PLUS, he's fit but not too bulky kind... lean and mean... hahaha!! But he had a goatie and usually I am anti-goatie but he can carry it off so WAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! And he had those fuzzy hair-cuts that usually those NS-guys have but he looked DAMN MAN lah!!!

But now, he has left and he has left his friend behind... Aiyoh, brief encounter with a hot guy today has brightened my spirits!!! *grinz*

Dinner at Stadium

We had dinner at the stadium today!!! In honour of Limei staying over, we had our SISTER gathering and ate sushi... Super duper full...



Looking at us like this, I wonder how we will age and how our lives will unravel themselves... The future is right ahead!!!

Ambivalence or miscommunication

How does a person distinguish between Ambivalence and just pure miscommunication?? HP313A would probably say a person would try to ask questions and get feedback until the "mutual knowledge" is gained and share by both but what if that person don't know whether that is the right thing to do?? Not everything is as straightforward and simple as in the lecture notes eh??

An over 12-hour lag is a bit too extreme don't you think?? Which service provider has such a slow system? The longest I had a lag was about 5 hours?? I rem tt time when no one could call through my phone when my phone was switched on through out and reception was full. And no sms-es could come through that 5 hour period... But 12 hours seem a bit too extreme doesn't it??

There are now 2 camps.

First, just don't say anything and don't do anything and wait and see what happend. BUt now, he has already apologised so why am I still behaving like tt? Should just let it go and take his word right?? I think a seed of poison has already been planted in my brain and I can't think objectively... tt feeling of being snubbed last nights is still etched in my mind and I am in a really mean mood. haha! Now I am the ambivalent one!!

Second, just ask him upfront what the hell is wrong and ask him to spit it out... Tt was exactly what I would do but then, the first camp's voice quite strong lah! hahaha!! Be straightforward about it and well, the ends should justify the means so who cares if it might become a bit embarassing...?

Well, my own thoughts are a bit jumbled at the moment but not in a distracted state... Still can function thank you very much!

Well, like what ai ren told me over breakfast today... I should maybe just have my own "Friendship Day" after exams... No obligations and commitments what! =) Ai ren, you are so cute... Your eyes were twinkling and you get excited about it for me for what?! haha!!

New pet

Today I adopted a new pet... A hedgehog named CHOYA!!! After my favourite drink!!! And I chose the hedgehog coz in times of danger or when it feels threatened, it can just roll up and stick out the spiky pins!!! Poke whoever dares to play punk with me!!! But CHOYA a bit cute, happy also will roll up into a ball and bounce around...

If u are free, click on Choya to play with her and feed her strawberries ok?? I like strawberries too but prefer them with condensed milk or chocolate!!!

Jiaying says...

that I must "ren"!!! Yah, my resolve is also tough so i can "ren", no problem at all... See who cracks first. But so, tt is why today i feel cranky and feel tt my mood a bit unpredictable...

Was bored at home yesterday so I took some pictures of random things at home... This was the specimen tt I found on my sofa when i wanted to vacuum the floor... I had no sympathy for this THING so i started to vacuum anyway... hahaha!! She looks like a piglet in her own piglet world... SO CUTE!!!



In the master-bedroom, I found these on my mum's dresser... It was a wedding anniversary gift from the 3 of us to our parents a few years back... They are permanently sleeping like tt on tt dressing table... So poor thing, cannot lie down. But they look so sweet!



Then I found my heels where I had kicked them off... By the shoe rack... In their most natural state, not purposely pose one OK?! And when I looked at them, it dawned on me tt I have more of these in the storeroom... The SISTERS know what my storeroom look like right? rem?? All the carefully labelled shoe boxes... I guess tt is what happens when u have 3 girls living together under 1 roof.



One last shot of Mushroom sun-tanning... So cute right?? He look very happy in the sun lor! But apparently now Mushroom is called Gao(1) Yao(4) Bu(4)... Thanks to some drunkards tt were wrecking havoc in my room last week and treating Mushroom as a rugby ball and spinning him... And his new English name is what, Ko-yok? Dumb ppl, all of u...

Difference

Chopped my nail last night all thanks to bowling... bowled really badly some more... Sheesh... Now i look at my right thumb and i think it looks quite botak... it split until i had no choice but to cut it round and close to the flesh itself... Super duper botak-looking nail...

THEN,

i wonder if there can be too much of a good thing... Like today, can feel a little difference compared to last night... Like, actually, totally different. A bit distant... maybe it's fatigue lah, i also a bit tired coz didn't sleep enough but then still... haiz... dunno is it he feeling a bit sian...

anyway, as i have decided that this is gg to be the last weekend tt i am gg to go out and play, we will be seeing each other less i guess. unless he wants to do coffee near my place... and of course, u know guys lah... after a while they will start to slack so maybe he won't be so hardworking to come over and look for me le in which case we might not meet at all until my exams are over but his course will not have ended yet so we will still not be able to meet then HOW!?

Too bad lor, i guess...

Unglam moment:
Ate at Pizza Hut and we really zhua the pizza and Hut's Platter... Use hands lor! But really leh, if never use hands i think i use fork and knife until i will be so tired i won't be able to enjoy the food properly. The drumlets were SHIOK!! Very long never eat so i felt like i was in heaven...

HIS Unglam moment:
Playing games at the arcade - he has a lot of LOUD sound effects... Ok, just loud enough for me to hear but yah, a lot of sound effects! hahaha!! first time see this really BOYISH side of him so it was an EYE-OPENING EXPERIENCE.