Pocket full of sunshine

[Interlude]
I got a pocket,got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love that knows that it's all mine
oh.oh,oh
Do what you want,but you never gonna break me,
sticks and stone are never gonna shake me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]
Take me away (take me away)
A secret place (a secret place)
A sweet escape (a sweet escape)
Take me away (take me away)
Take me away (take me away)
To better days (to better days)
Take me away (take me away)
A hiding place (a hiding place)

[Interlude]
I got pocket,Got a pocket full of sunshine
I got a love that knows that it's all mine
oh,oh,oh
Wish that you could,but you ain't gonna own me
do anything you can to control me
oh,oh,oh

[Chorus]

[Hook]
There's a place that I go
That nobody knows
Where the rivers flow
And I call it home
And there's no more lies
And darkness is light
And nobody cries
there's only butterflies

[Chorus 2x]

[Chorus & Interlude]

The sun's on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

The sun's on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be alright

Success and Happiness

Today we pitched our project idea to Catherine and well, we were just bouncing some ideas around. It centres around life satisfaction, or happiness, and the different factors that might contribute to it. Attaining success is one of them but what is the definition of it?

In the end, she cautioned us,

"Don't confuse Success with Happiness."

Sounds simple enough? But her words kept resonating in my mind and I just couldn't shake it out of my head. What exactly is success and with success, will happiness definitely follow?? Why do some live in poverty but stay happy while others who have no financial worries are constantly battling discontentment??

What is success to me?? And what will give me happiness?? Am I satisfied with life now?? What about in the future?? If I am working to ensure happiness in the future, that must mean that I am not happy now right? I am discontented with what I have that is why I am "working" to ensure future happiness...

Puzzling and almost cyclical train of thought that just won't go away... Causing my eyes to feel hot and dry and irritated... Could be the contact lenses though...

Uncertainty isn't fun at all and haha, the articles that we read and try to understand are just making me more confused about the human mind... Maybe should quit school and become a full-time nanny like Izyan suggested.

Seven Basic Steps to Maintaining a Good Relationship

Found this on some counselling website and I just thought of sharing.

1. Be aware of what you and your partner want for yourselves and what you want from the relationship.

2. Let one another know what your needs are.

3. Realize that your partner will not be able to meet all of your needs. Some of these needs will have to be met outside the relationship.

4. Be willing to negotiate and compromise on the things you want from one another.

5. Do not demand that a partner change to meet all your expectations. Work to accept the differences that you see between your ideal and the reality.

6. Try to see things from the other's point of view. This doesn't mean that you must agree with one another, but rather that you can expect yourself and your partner to understand and respect your differences, your points of view and your separate needs.

7. Where critical differences exist in your expectations, needs, opinions or views, try to negotiate.

All sounds very common sense but how often have we lost track of it ourselves? Going to let these rules guide me. =)

No photos

Well, I thought we have never taken a picture together, until I remembered I have seen him in a bathrobe and I know because he was wearing a bathrobe, I wanted to take picture with him. Well, I was pretty high then, and then I recalled when was that. It was at Hall Ball a couple of years back. Not too long ago, if we thought about it.

I always felt that he was only like, maybe 2cm taller than me. But in this picture can see he quite a bit taller than me lah... haha!! Revelation. Well, as can tell, I was already super high at that time... Ai ren and my faces both very red.

I think his hair a bit too long here, look every bit an Ah Beng.

Well, it's about a year and half later now and look at where we are...

Dreamy

Body still feels like it is in dream land and my brain is not warmed up for any work... Still in the weekend mood...

Let's do an inverntory take on Vday... 2 roses, 2 love notes (i received a 2nd one from wenqi), a pig paperclip, an angel paperclip and the biggest gift of all - A NEW ADIDAS GYM BAG. Yah, it's that colour that you see it here...

Supposed to motivate me to go to the gym more but I am just fascinated by how deceivingly small it is lah! Can put so many things... Unlike the Crumpler, look like can put a lot of things but actually not many things... The gym bag is so.... SWEE!!!

Watched JUMPER on Saturday... Awesome show, totally felt like becoming a Jumper too!!! I was like pseudo-laughing at the guys when they were gushing about how they wanted to be Jumpers too, but inside me, I was also thinking how nice if I was a Jumper too!!!

Hayden Christensen is HOT. And I have to agree with Izyan that the last line was a killer. Totally sealed his IDEAL BOYFRIEND status.

"So, where do you want to go?" -Jump-

Yes, please... Breakfast in Paris, shopping in Milan, lunch on xiao long baos in Shanghai, massage in India, afternoon tea in London watch sunset in the Carribbean before having dinner and then back home. Wah!!

Ok, back to reality. Really, watch it girls. I had to hold a bowl beneath my chin coz I was drooling so much... Woohoo!!

Next movies in line that I want to watch:

(1) 27 dresses

(2) Ah Long Pte Ltd

Guess what? Adam and I have not watched a movie tgt before. As in just us. Both times we watched movies, were with a gang of people. But I have to admit that it is fun hanging out with them. =)

Post V Day Date

Looking forward to tonight...

I called mama last night to wish her Happy Valentine's Day and she sounded smiley and happy. Glad to hear that her flu has finally cleared and she no longer sound nasal... She was surprised that I wasn't with Adam though, and that I had just finished gym with Diane and we were on our way to get dinner... Told her that our date has been postponed coz I have classes today mah...

Dinner tonight!! Looking forward to it. I have a meat craving but I hope the portion isn't too big. After I started gymming, my appetite has shrunk a bit so I no longer ravage my food. I'm sure the food is gg to taste good but I don't want to disappoint the chef by having leftovers on my plate... Apparently, got no dessert lah...

He say I can have dessert but he's not gg to have any... Just coz he went to NYDC at Holland V last night with WC and Ryan to eat ice cream (Gay Boys Alert -WAR)... But desserts must eat together then nice mah! So, since he's not having any then I also dun want!

And I was telling Diane that erm, he sounded genuine about the first gift which was the perfume lah but he also said he had somehow guessed that it was gg to be that perfume. But when he opened the box with the key-chains, I think he sounded a bit TOO OVER...

"WOW, KEYCHAINS!!"

Like, seriously, Yuwen and Huiyun also felt that he might not be too hot over them and I also know I bought them more coz I WANTED THEM... So his reaction was a bit... But, since he changed his keychain on the spot without me saying anything, I shall just accept that yes, maybe he did like them (a bit hard to believe I know...) and that yes, maybe coz this set was a bit more abstract than the initial one that caught my eye, so yah...

Alright, came to library to print notes but ended up blogging. Now I am late for class. Bleh!!

Guess what?

The whole world has wished me HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY already but not a single *beep* from him... Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Really leh, my random friends have wished me on msn and even sent SMSes to wish me, Andy Toh also wished me (I almost dropped the phone coz I went into shock), Jay wished me (how random right, after SO LONG), and even Alan wished me (his new display pic of Michi is damn CUTE lah!!).

Di also wished me... So, he leh?

RAH!!!

Must be the period making me feel a bit twitchy and provoked... No cramps but just uncomfortable and I think tt's what making me very snappy, irritated and a bit on the bitchy side. Turned down dinner invitations (ok lah, coz I promised Di I will go gym with her already), but not a single beep from him...

AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Project V Day is completed!!

Hope he likes them... Although no news from him today and well, he is not the first person to wish me Happy Valentine's...

Sweet lil Lydia gave me my first Valentine!! A hand-written note plus a pig paper-clip... Love the pig's silver ears and bright pink nose. The pig itself is blue by the way...

I also received ROSES!!!

It's been 2 WHOLE YEARS since I last recevied flowers lah!! The first rose was from the Top 3 guys in OMC - Sammy, Chin Sin & Jerry!! When I opened the door to see them and that stalk of rose, I was so touched that I think I could have cried... I am not being melodramatic here, it's what I truly felt...

I have always felt that flowers are a waste of money coz you can't keep them and they are only pretty for that moment. But I have to admit that, on special days like this, I really appreciate the flowers...

The second stalk was from Minghui!! Dearest captain and shoulder-stand base... He had a whole Crumpler bag filled with the roses and he was delivering them to all the girls... He just looked so cute, like Mr Postman...

So now these have claimed a spot on my noticeboard too... Just can't help admiring how nice they look and well, I really like the roses... I wouldn't say roses are my favourites, but they do signify romance, what can be more apt than the roses on Valentine's Day?? I really can't think of any flower that's better... White Lilies?

I hope the guys have a Happy Valentine's too!!

Lastly, before I sleep, I think I want Ai Ren to know that I feel a bit INSULTED that she say my presents look like LUKCY DRAW PRIZES coz the 2 are wrapped in the same wrapping paper... Can't help it if I decided to use the remaining one and not buy new ones... =P

Next time I dun help you "audit" liao hor!! You ownself slowly count hor!! *hahahaha*

To all my dearest friends (you all know that you are the privileged lot right? my blog quite exclusive leh...), enjoy Valentine's Day wherever you are. Think of your loved ones and your friends. =)

Project V Day

Hello!! It's Valentine's Day tml!! Although many see it as a time for romance, I rem in Sec sch, we used to say it was a day for friendship also... Thus, used to prepare small chocolates and stuff for my girl friends too.

In Japan, Valentine's Day is a time for GIRLS to CONFESS THEIR LOVE!!! Basically, in Japan, the girls do the GIVING lah... Chocolates and cards and love letters... Then if the guy appreciates her feelings and want to reciprocate, they do that in WHITE'S DAY which is a month after, on 14th March. That happens to be my papa's birthday also.. *hehe*

Anyway, bought present and wrapped it on Monday already but went to the Joint Hall Bazaar just now and came across SOMETHING SMALL that was so CUTE that I just ended up buying it lah... haha!! I really think it's cute but as I was asking Yuwen and Huiyun, dunnoe if Adam will appreciate it or not... If he dun then, I just have to thick skin a bit...

Like that day when we were talking about jigsaw puzzles and he said "guys won't appreciate one lor", I was stunned momentarily... Coz that was one of the things I thought of doing for him for V.Day... I've always liked doing those colourful and cute jigsaws and his bedroom wall also like got space so thought of doing one... At that point in time when he said it over the phone, I could feel the heat creeping up onto my cheeks but I also just "ying zhe tou pi" and said yah, I already knew he won't appreciate. I also just laugh it off with Yuwen but inside was like, "..."

I was wondering, if I had already bought the puzzle and the frame and had already started on the puzzle, what would I have done?? Would I have just scraped it and got something else?? But I know at that moment, my heart just sank and hit the floor with a dull thud. And the blush on my face was so bloody hot, lost for words for 1.5sec and then I just felt that, hmmm...

Would he have pretended to like the present if I had gotten him something that he didn't like? Would I prefer him to PRETEND TO LIKE IT or to TELL ME THE TRUTH?? I prefer to know the truth lah, but sometimes the truth can be a bit too painful...

Aiyoh, now I think of that "puzzle conversation" only, I will feel the embarrassment welling up inside me... =P

Drinking Session at 14

I know this post is a bit late... Ok, not a bit, QUITE... But well, this was the aftermath of Project Bloop and Mambo deprivation on Harold's part... I remember Leonard was VERY ON that night and that Harold drank expired beer...

I think Zihui did a Merlion in Harold's toilet and that was when the night ended. But I finished the night off when I started jumping on Jason's bed and stole his bolster... Threw his bolster down the stairs when he caught me... Haha!

It's the last semester for so many of them... I will miss you all but until that day, let's have more of these nonsensical nights... And no attempts to play "intellectual" games like MURDERER ok?? Stick to "Cai Quan" and "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" =)