Guess what?

I miss him already.

But not in the love-sick way. I just miss him. And he just left yesterday. But he will be back on Sunday.

I miss him and I just keep thinking about how he said he hopes I remember him for the whole week that he is gone. How not to miss his funny antics and unglam actions?

Weekend

The past weekend has been relaxing and fruitful to me. Did many things that I should have done and I had time to relax and rest properly.

Firstly, I didn't club. So I had enough sleep and to rest my body.

Secondly, SP Night stuff finalise everything liao. HENG AH~!

Thirdly, I met up with RAINBOW SISTERS for our overdue reunion. Really missed the girls but we sort of just picked up from where we had left off. It didn't feel awkward or especially emotional. Just felt great to spend time together.

Lastly, I went to the gym on Sunday with Adam and WC. Wah! The Keppel Country Club gym is so WOW!! So many complicated-looking equipments and it was interesting. The shower area also damn shiok lah! So many amenities... Got hair-dryer, lotion, moisturiser... All tt it is short of is conditioner.

Time spent with Adam was short but somehow I really enojyed the time with him. It was meaningful in a way.

We went to the ZOO

Yes, we went to the zoo!!! And Adam found his good friend there... See the resemblance? He looks more freaked out than anything else. The zoo was so crowded that we had to park far far away and walk all the way into the zoo. It was a long walk and it was really hot tt day but the trip was overall enjoyable.

And my sister said I have to take a picture with Ah Meng's statue so I got Adam to take this shot for me. We went to the zoo and took pictures with FAKE ANIMALS... We are weird...

Although we walked until we were so hot and sticky, we still had fun. And yes, we were very thirsty. He didn't complain about the heat, he didn't complain about the long walk in, he didn't complain about the crowd. He even made green apple with yakult when we got home. =)

He is my champion. The next day, he even helped to cook dinner at my house and after dinner, he made the green apple with yakult drink again for my sisters and my mama.

There, this was our parting shot of tt day.

Good mood

After the chaos tt the voicemail system managed to wreck yesterday, today is a relatively good day. And the thought tt I will be out on a proper date again tonight just puts me in a good mood. Haha! It's been a while since we went on a proper date tgt and the fact tt he is "planning" something is really something to look forward to.

We are meeting in TOWN!!!

Forgive me, coz we always end up meeting in the east-side and then we end up just hanging around like old neighbours. Today is a diversion from our usual routine so it makes me really excited.

And on Saturday we are gg to the ZOO!!! So fun-filled lah, this week.

P.S: Limei u do look like HOT BABE in ur makeover photos. Like a SEXY MAMA. haha!!

Reflections

The other day, Limei said reading Adam's dad's blog was really inspirational. For a moment, I was like, "What?!" You girls are reading his blog too?? But tt is besides the point. I have reading through it as well and I find tt his entries are very reflective.

Unlike us, he has led a much longer life and seen more things. He reflects on life and the things that are happening around him. The entry about planning for the rest of his life ahead was poignant and almost nostalgic but at the same time, hopeful and I think he sounded really brave to be facing the uncertainties ahead. After working for so many years and leading a somewhat routine lifestyle, it can be a jarring experience to be plucked out and made to move to a whole new ball game. I mean, the kind of things I reflect on are so much more insignificant and puny compared to his. My life is still so shallow and superficial, my thoughts still very self-centred and I know my future is still unplanned.

I like to think I am carefree and it is true that I don't like to be restrained from doing the things I want to do. But then again, without planning, we can't quite tell what to expect. No one really lives a day by day unless there is nothing in the future to look forward to. We all have certain expectations about how we want our lives to be. Even the most laid-back among us would have planned where the next moolah supply was coming in to continue leading a leisurely lifestyle. We need plans to help us see what we can expect. It is almost a motivation of some sort.

I used to think, "there's still another year before I graduate..." but the truth is, YOU MEAN I ONLY HAVE A YEAR LEFT?!?!?! Time flies really fast so I am really anxious. I haven't given serious thought as to what I want to do after I graduate. Everyone is saying that the first job is very important. At the moment, I have only narrowed it down to PRIVATE SECTOR.

All my plans now are really short term, like what to complete within the week. It's worrying. Isn't it?

Weekends over

I feel a bit more blue this Monday. More than usual. I think it is because I had a really good weekend and my butt is hurting from all the squats. I feel like it's gg to drop off anytime. Bleh!!

And then this crazy woman called to scold me. Really scold me. OMG. And I tried to maintain my angelic voice and the smile on my face. But no. She scolds me. And she wouldn't stop. And finally she hangs the phone on me. Thanks. ARGH!!!

Like I told Lay See after tt, she is fierce and uncooperative. She calls up and just starts scolding. And when she can't pronounce "Four Seasons" (tt's where she's working) properly and I asked her to repeat, she scolds me for being ignorant. I asked her to read the Household ID for me and tells her the rough location of it she tells me she can't find it and she can't read it out. So irritating.

People like this spoils my day with huge success. I hate bad starts like this. I just want to go home and curl up and sleep. Like seriously.

Neverending supply of letters to fold. And my data-entry is becoming a huge backlog thanks to all these letters. I just can't wait for our pay to come in and then, maybe I will feel better about life in general. =)

Coming up:

Mon - Tuition at Boon Lay
Tue - Tuition at Pasir Ris
Wed - Tuition at Boon Lay
Thur- Meet Melissa in Town
Fri - Tuition at Pasir Ris before meeting Adam
Sat - Cooking dinner at Adam's place
Sun - Morning meet Catherine and the girls for FYP

Next week Tracy's gg to Malacca so I will have a break from teaching her for the week. So looking forward to it. Hehe!!

DS Lite

Adam has bought a new White DS Lite... And I am getting hooked on it. Hahaha.

I was the one that keptasking him to "think carefully" but now I am the one tt has claimed ownership over it. He's nice tt way, he just laughed at me, but didn't say " I told you so" or anything like tt. I think he likes me. *blush*

But I am playing all the crappy-fun games like Cooking Mama. =) Learning new recipes... So fun lah! I have never chopped spring onions so fast before lah!!! As promised, I am not playing it at work. Who in the right mind will play DS Lite at work??

I hope the day ends soon then I can play on the train!

I am dying

I think I am dying.

My flu has been here for 2 weeks already and no signs of improvement. Like I told Di yesterday, my head is so full of mucus and phlegm that I am getting a headache and toothache from it. Yes, did you know that when you have a blocked nose it can cause your tooth to ache?? Something about having too much fluid somewhere and then causing the ache. I didn't know it until a doctor told me that a few years back.

I am coughing non-stop and my voice is giving. I hope there aren't many calls today coz I don't think I have the best voice to listen to today. I will be coughing every other second. And it doesn't help that my throat is swollen and so I can't breathe properly. My nose is blocked so can't breathe thru my nose, throat swollen so swallowing is a problem. Every breath I take tickles my throat, making me want to cough.

Here I go again. *cough cough cough*

And I am depleting the supply of flu medicine at home. And I think my perfume stinks today. It's Tommy Hilfiger but I don't think it smells the same anymore. *cough cough* If I find it stinky when I already have a blocked nose, what must the people around me be thinking?? *cough*

I hope I am not carrying a lethal army of germs on me and spreading it to every one that stays in the same room as me. Dammit. I must be terrorising the people who are squashed in the MRT train with me everyday. *cough* I can't help it though.

Breathe in. *cough* Breathe out. *cough*
Breathe in. *cough* Breathe out. *cough*

I am blogging a lot for a sick person.

Cravings

I am having some hungry thoughts now so I thought of blogging down all the things that I want to eat.

(1) Sushi
Adam has been having his crave too so I think it is rubbing off on me also.

(2) Chocolate chip cookies
Those rich, crumbly, really chocolatey kind.

(3) Cold fresh milk
If I am gg to have those cookies I want the milk too.

(4) Campbell's Soup
Cream of corn/mushroom to be exact. Like very long never drink mah.

(5) Sorbet
Just something refreshingly cold and tangy.

(6) Boiled/Steamed prawns
Yes, I love my seafood but the prawns would suffice for now.

(7) Carl's Jnr's beef chilli fries

I think this is it for now. Yes, FOR NOW. =)

Eat Pray Love - Elizabeth Gilbert

"I know this feeling all too intimately. I know the sad longing to delay the end of another February 4. This sadness is one of the great trials of the human experiment. As far as we know, we are the only species on the planet who have been given the gift - or the curse, perhaps - of awareness about our own mortality. Everything here eventually die; we're just the lucky ones who get to think about this fact everyday. How are you going to cope with this information? When I was nine, I couldn't do anything with it except cry. Later, over the years, my hypersensitive awareness of time's speed led me to push myself to experience life at a maximum pace. If I were going to have such a short visit on earth, I had to do everything possible to experience it now..."

I am still reading this book now but the first few chapters have already overwhelmed me with this sense of comfort and hope that in the end, nothing is more devastating than death so there's nothing to worry about the daily stuff. I like what an old woman told the author.

"There are only two questions that human beings have fought over, all through history. How much do you love me? And Who's in charge?"

Everything else is somehow manageable. But these two questions of love and control undo us all, trip us up and cause war, grief and suffering.

But all in all, the author somehow coped by writing to herself in a journal. And each time she scrawled "I need your help." She reminded herself how much she still loved herself even through all the dysfunctionality and the mistakes. That was the comfort and strength that she couldn't find anywhere else. What mattered was that she still loved herself, respected herself and that was enough. I like that.

At the end of the day, no matter what others say, if I choose not to let it affect me, it will not affect me. I don't have to sit around feeling sad and unhappy. I can seek out things and activities that makes me happy. The author has gone to Rome to learn Italian and gorged herself on the food there. Now I am with her on the journey to find God and serenity in an Ashram in India. I know she still has one last place to go in her book but I am relishing every word that is in the book.

What did I do so far? I chose to speak to one of my cousins and let it all out. Then I didn't think about it anymore. It wasn't hard to see that I shouldn't waste my time being upset about it. I went out with my friends and had a great time just having a quick dinner and then a drink together. I didn't allow my own sorrow spoil my time. Why should I allow this to consume my whole life? It just isn't worth it to give up other good things in life. I am thankful for these things.