Feeling Emo

Emo-moment...

Song of the moment: When you're Gone-Avril Lavigne

I miss my mama... It almost broke my heart when mama said she really miss us and feel like giving us a hug... We laughed it off, saying we have become quite thin now and she'll find it uncomfortable when she squeezes us...

I miss her, I want her here with me too. I want to whine and ask her to do things for me too... I want to hug her shrinking frame and know tt she'll always be here. I want her back home.

So Diu Lian

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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SO DIU LIAN!!!

OMG, why was i so dumb... now maybe i should just throw myself out of the window... but 4th floor jump down i think i will become crippled only... ARGH!!!!

Boohoo!!!

So dumb...

How Do Men See ME?!

Did the quiz posted on ai ren's blog... Funny...

Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily

How Do Men See You?

Feeling fat

I am feeling fat today... Not really FAT per se but a bit Bloated none the less... Feeling super bloated all the time...

Like just now, not hungry leh but i know i must eat if not later tonight i will be hungry and then i will want to eat at such a late hours some more and then tml morning I will end up with a big big tummy... So i ate... And JY wanted bubble tea with her subway and so i couldnt resist too and am now nursing my bubble tea too...

I feel FAT.

When will i stop feeling fat? When I am no longer fat.

And I think I have to stop blogging all the time about every single tinge of bad emotions i have... If not i see my blog i also sian. But tt doesn't mean I dun feel fat already. I still do.

Over the weekend when i wasn't feeling well, it felt really good when tt nauseous feeling came to me. it was like: "Oh yes, puke it out! Puke it out! PUKE IT OUT!!!"
It almost feels like a cleansing ritual, feels really good. And yes, my period just finished so the nauseous feeling isn't a matter of concern. Just a silly tummy bug i think... But when I feel like vomitting I dun even try to stop, I sort of want it to come.

And my full appetite isn't back yet. It's early but I feel sleepy already.

TOASTED

I think I am gg to crash soon... Time seems to fly and it's w/o me knowing... I feel like I am rushing all the time and I can't seem to slow down at all... Feel super duper tired and thank god i still have the sense of urgency to complete things tt need to be done.

I try to force myself to relax and not panic and tt everything will work out, which so far it is... BUT i just feel like i am gg to crash from the lack of rest and ME-TIME... I wanna hide and hibernate and play The Sims 2 everyday... I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!