Feeling fat

I am feeling fat today... Not really FAT per se but a bit Bloated none the less... Feeling super bloated all the time...

Like just now, not hungry leh but i know i must eat if not later tonight i will be hungry and then i will want to eat at such a late hours some more and then tml morning I will end up with a big big tummy... So i ate... And JY wanted bubble tea with her subway and so i couldnt resist too and am now nursing my bubble tea too...

I feel FAT.

When will i stop feeling fat? When I am no longer fat.

And I think I have to stop blogging all the time about every single tinge of bad emotions i have... If not i see my blog i also sian. But tt doesn't mean I dun feel fat already. I still do.

Over the weekend when i wasn't feeling well, it felt really good when tt nauseous feeling came to me. it was like: "Oh yes, puke it out! Puke it out! PUKE IT OUT!!!"
It almost feels like a cleansing ritual, feels really good. And yes, my period just finished so the nauseous feeling isn't a matter of concern. Just a silly tummy bug i think... But when I feel like vomitting I dun even try to stop, I sort of want it to come.

And my full appetite isn't back yet. It's early but I feel sleepy already.