Ok, it is just slightly less than 2 weeks till the submission of GP. I am officially gg full speed ahead right till the end. Thing is, I can finally set my mind to just my work.
Tt is because I have found a job!!! Woohoo!!! With tt load off my mind, I can fully concentrate on the things that are important. I know my priorities are a bit screwed... It should have been school work above everything else, but I admit that it was not. hehe!! Now that I can see where I am headed after graduation, it is easier for me to let my mind settle and concentrate on the things that matter. =)
Now, I can just smile and look ahead.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
It's a Friday!!
Dear mama is coming home with McNuggets for me! Hehe!! Macs for lunch is something I have not had in a long long time!!
Anyway, I cannot believe that exactly 1 month from now, everything will be over. I am graduating soon. =)
Anyway, I cannot believe that exactly 1 month from now, everything will be over. I am graduating soon. =)
Friday, March 13, 2009
First Draft
I think it will end today. Not the final lah. Got some parts I am still thinking over so I think I need to indicate to Cat tt I am still putting thought into it and tt while she is reading through, I will be adding on things at the same time.
I should be able to send out to her by this evening. Cross my fingers.
I should be able to send out to her by this evening. Cross my fingers.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Doing work
My motivation to work is back!! Yep, typing report and doing all the things that should have been done like 2 weeks ago. But I have to admit that having a baby at home is so distracting!!! On one hand, I get things done better when I do them at home but on the other hand, the baby calls out to me every couple of hours. Haiz...
I am gg to miss Gordon (BABY G) when he goes back to Hong Kong.
I get this feeling of warmth when I feed him his milk and he drinks it properly. I also feel very happy when he falls asleep in my arms. But no lah, I am not craving to be a mother yet. Coz I gratefully give the "middle of the night" duty up to my mother and in the mornings I don't wake up early to take care of him. I still like being a "part-time" nanny only.
Ok, since he is having his nap now, better quickly do report. Later, bringing him out to Changi Airport!!!
I am gg to miss Gordon (BABY G) when he goes back to Hong Kong.
I get this feeling of warmth when I feed him his milk and he drinks it properly. I also feel very happy when he falls asleep in my arms. But no lah, I am not craving to be a mother yet. Coz I gratefully give the "middle of the night" duty up to my mother and in the mornings I don't wake up early to take care of him. I still like being a "part-time" nanny only.
Ok, since he is having his nap now, better quickly do report. Later, bringing him out to Changi Airport!!!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Stag Night and Hen Parties
Last Sunday, there was an article in the newspaper about a female writer planning her own hen party while fretting over her husband-to-be's stag night. She was planning lots of booze and among other details, male dancers in policemen uniforms. Then she heard that her fiance was gg on a boys-only trip to Cambodia. She was thinking it would be a life-changing experience which might mean her man coming back as a better man.
She was all for it.
Then she heard from a "worldly" colleague that oh, the girls in Cambodia are 10 times cheaper than hiring girls in Singapore. Imagine, for the amount you spend on hiring 6 girls for a stag night in Singapore, you can have 60 Cambodian girls. Yes, tt was preceisely the figure that they talked about.
So, do I intend to have a hen party when I am gg to get married? I don't think so.
Someone told me that it is tradition. To have a stag night? Talk to my ass. A tradition to get involved in teenage shenanigans and celebrating the one last night of bachelorhood? Firstly, why is there a need to "make full use" of that one last night before committing to that one person? If you want to, you can make every night a stag night if you remain single. I believe it is just a sign that one is not ready to commit. If engaging in frivolous activity is a tradition before getting married, I seriously wonder what that says about a future with that person.
Like I said, if my fiance believes that he has to have a stag night if not he is just half the man he is supposed to be, go ahead. But he will not touch me until he is tested for STDs. Or any other types of diseases. Tt's what I said.
But after thinking further, I think no. I will not have him at all.
When asked if I will have a hen party, I truthfully answered no coz I pictured myself preparing myself to look beautiful on that one special day of my life. I want to look good for that one special day which marks the beginning of my life with the man that I love. But since that same man might be more inclined to be eagerly planning how to leave bachelorhood behind with a big bang then I would like to pat his hand and say don't leave it behind. Since you aren't ready then continue on. If he needs to "make full use" of that one last night before committing himself to me then I would like to say don't make that sacrifice.
I finally see that I don't have to compromise on things that I truly believe in. So I don't expect my fiance (whoever that may turn out to be) to have to compromise too if a stag night is important to him. Don't make leaving bachelorhood behind for a life with me a chore. I wouldn't want to stick to a man that thinks that way too anyway.
She was all for it.
Then she heard from a "worldly" colleague that oh, the girls in Cambodia are 10 times cheaper than hiring girls in Singapore. Imagine, for the amount you spend on hiring 6 girls for a stag night in Singapore, you can have 60 Cambodian girls. Yes, tt was preceisely the figure that they talked about.
So, do I intend to have a hen party when I am gg to get married? I don't think so.
Someone told me that it is tradition. To have a stag night? Talk to my ass. A tradition to get involved in teenage shenanigans and celebrating the one last night of bachelorhood? Firstly, why is there a need to "make full use" of that one last night before committing to that one person? If you want to, you can make every night a stag night if you remain single. I believe it is just a sign that one is not ready to commit. If engaging in frivolous activity is a tradition before getting married, I seriously wonder what that says about a future with that person.
Like I said, if my fiance believes that he has to have a stag night if not he is just half the man he is supposed to be, go ahead. But he will not touch me until he is tested for STDs. Or any other types of diseases. Tt's what I said.
But after thinking further, I think no. I will not have him at all.
When asked if I will have a hen party, I truthfully answered no coz I pictured myself preparing myself to look beautiful on that one special day of my life. I want to look good for that one special day which marks the beginning of my life with the man that I love. But since that same man might be more inclined to be eagerly planning how to leave bachelorhood behind with a big bang then I would like to pat his hand and say don't leave it behind. Since you aren't ready then continue on. If he needs to "make full use" of that one last night before committing himself to me then I would like to say don't make that sacrifice.
I finally see that I don't have to compromise on things that I truly believe in. So I don't expect my fiance (whoever that may turn out to be) to have to compromise too if a stag night is important to him. Don't make leaving bachelorhood behind for a life with me a chore. I wouldn't want to stick to a man that thinks that way too anyway.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Not what I want
Last night's dinner with Diane was fun and really, COMFORTING. Maybe she is really one of my strongest pillars in life. I miss her when I don't see her around and I feel alright when we sms or talk on the phone but it's only when we meet up that the realisation as to how much I have missed her hits me. WHAM!!
Anyway, the quiet talk we had kept our jaws busy. This time round, there were more things to update each other about so I think when we said bye at the bus-stop, our burgers were already digested and the Milo was sustaining us for the journey home.
Anyway, like I told her, I might end up doing something for the sake of something else. 4 years ago, when I walked away from another relationship, it was because I didn't want to have to get married immediately after I graduate just because he was older than me and his bio clock was ticking. To me, getting married for a different agenda has never been what I wanted. But now, almost the same thing might happen.
To marry someone for the sake of buying a house is an even sadder excuse. To marry someone just so that the 5 years that we will be bonded to the HDB flat can pass earlier is the worst excuse I have ever heard. And he claims that since now I already know that this is what he plans and even if he proposes to me with a totally different agenda, I won't be convinced.
I never thought my life would turn out like this. It used to be because someone wanted to start a family for me but I panicked and left. Now it's because of a property. Pratical, I know. But unavoidable?
Right beneath "Getting married to get citizenship", "Getting married to acquire property so that bond pass faster" has got to be the all-time number 2. Sadly, no matter how I like to believe that I am prepared for anything to hit me, this never crossed my mind until it was right in my face.
Anyway, the quiet talk we had kept our jaws busy. This time round, there were more things to update each other about so I think when we said bye at the bus-stop, our burgers were already digested and the Milo was sustaining us for the journey home.
Anyway, like I told her, I might end up doing something for the sake of something else. 4 years ago, when I walked away from another relationship, it was because I didn't want to have to get married immediately after I graduate just because he was older than me and his bio clock was ticking. To me, getting married for a different agenda has never been what I wanted. But now, almost the same thing might happen.
To marry someone for the sake of buying a house is an even sadder excuse. To marry someone just so that the 5 years that we will be bonded to the HDB flat can pass earlier is the worst excuse I have ever heard. And he claims that since now I already know that this is what he plans and even if he proposes to me with a totally different agenda, I won't be convinced.
I never thought my life would turn out like this. It used to be because someone wanted to start a family for me but I panicked and left. Now it's because of a property. Pratical, I know. But unavoidable?
Right beneath "Getting married to get citizenship", "Getting married to acquire property so that bond pass faster" has got to be the all-time number 2. Sadly, no matter how I like to believe that I am prepared for anything to hit me, this never crossed my mind until it was right in my face.
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