Last night's dinner with Diane was fun and really, COMFORTING. Maybe she is really one of my strongest pillars in life. I miss her when I don't see her around and I feel alright when we sms or talk on the phone but it's only when we meet up that the realisation as to how much I have missed her hits me. WHAM!!
Anyway, the quiet talk we had kept our jaws busy. This time round, there were more things to update each other about so I think when we said bye at the bus-stop, our burgers were already digested and the Milo was sustaining us for the journey home.
Anyway, like I told her, I might end up doing something for the sake of something else. 4 years ago, when I walked away from another relationship, it was because I didn't want to have to get married immediately after I graduate just because he was older than me and his bio clock was ticking. To me, getting married for a different agenda has never been what I wanted. But now, almost the same thing might happen.
To marry someone for the sake of buying a house is an even sadder excuse. To marry someone just so that the 5 years that we will be bonded to the HDB flat can pass earlier is the worst excuse I have ever heard. And he claims that since now I already know that this is what he plans and even if he proposes to me with a totally different agenda, I won't be convinced.
I never thought my life would turn out like this. It used to be because someone wanted to start a family for me but I panicked and left. Now it's because of a property. Pratical, I know. But unavoidable?
Right beneath "Getting married to get citizenship", "Getting married to acquire property so that bond pass faster" has got to be the all-time number 2. Sadly, no matter how I like to believe that I am prepared for anything to hit me, this never crossed my mind until it was right in my face.
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