Reflections

The other day, Limei said reading Adam's dad's blog was really inspirational. For a moment, I was like, "What?!" You girls are reading his blog too?? But tt is besides the point. I have reading through it as well and I find tt his entries are very reflective.

Unlike us, he has led a much longer life and seen more things. He reflects on life and the things that are happening around him. The entry about planning for the rest of his life ahead was poignant and almost nostalgic but at the same time, hopeful and I think he sounded really brave to be facing the uncertainties ahead. After working for so many years and leading a somewhat routine lifestyle, it can be a jarring experience to be plucked out and made to move to a whole new ball game. I mean, the kind of things I reflect on are so much more insignificant and puny compared to his. My life is still so shallow and superficial, my thoughts still very self-centred and I know my future is still unplanned.

I like to think I am carefree and it is true that I don't like to be restrained from doing the things I want to do. But then again, without planning, we can't quite tell what to expect. No one really lives a day by day unless there is nothing in the future to look forward to. We all have certain expectations about how we want our lives to be. Even the most laid-back among us would have planned where the next moolah supply was coming in to continue leading a leisurely lifestyle. We need plans to help us see what we can expect. It is almost a motivation of some sort.

I used to think, "there's still another year before I graduate..." but the truth is, YOU MEAN I ONLY HAVE A YEAR LEFT?!?!?! Time flies really fast so I am really anxious. I haven't given serious thought as to what I want to do after I graduate. Everyone is saying that the first job is very important. At the moment, I have only narrowed it down to PRIVATE SECTOR.

All my plans now are really short term, like what to complete within the week. It's worrying. Isn't it?