Affections

Stingy little pig... Stingy with affections I mean... Why is it that although 2 people are a couple already but they will still talk to each other as though they are just friends??

THAT GUY talks to me as though he is talking to his brothers or something... It's UBER WEIRD and I find that a bit disconcerting... One minute the mood is good and well, maybe even a lil intimate and then BANG!! He opens his mouth and talks to me as though he is talking to his guy friends...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is it coz we were already friends to start with, so somehow he talks like that?? Like, WAH, SO COMFORTABLE WITH ME ALREADY HOR! Even I don't behave the same way around him as I do when I am with Yuwen, Harold etc. at BLK 14...

Yes, I do find myself doing stupid things and unglam things around him also but...

...

NVM.

Oh yes, like I was telling Diane, there must be a screw loose in my brain... It's actually when he is doing something STUPID that I find him most adorable and well, he gives me that *meltz* kind of feeling...

Like, when he did that stupid laugh-non-stop-like-Stephen-Chow thing when he first got his car... Let me tell you, it wasn't a pretty sight at all and it was a bit irritating but his expression of pure elation and childish glee was so... *MELTZ*

When he's super tired and sleepy and he looks like he just want to curl up and die... He will have this EXPRESSION that makes me think, *MELTZ*

When he's trying to describe to me something and well, the way he describes it is like super unglam with lots of funny sound effects and maybe half the time he is not even articulating it in proper words... *MELTZ*

LIke HELLO AKI!! WAKE UP YOUR IDEA!! A BIT TOO EASILY CONTENTED, NO?!

It's just all these super duper funny things that make me want to just squeeze him... haha!!

I think I must be chill about it... Coz well, I know he is still holding back, I mean, he said it himself... SELF=DEFENSE MECHANISM. WTF?!
What makes him so sure that I am any less fearful of getting hurt than him?? RAH!