Different Lifestyle indeed

Just read Izyan's blog about her "new friend"... Was a bit reluctant to get down from Crystal's car when reach my hall but I couldn't possibl ride with u girls until Yio Chu Kang...

Thing is, I have known of a case like tt too... And it tends to make ppl think about it alot... Like we said just now, how can anyone NOT go thru an internal struggle before deciding to abort... Thing is, I wouldn't know what to do if tt happened to me... Will I abort it just coz it's in the way or let it come into the world and then decide on the next step in life after tt??

The girl sounded very cool and aloof about it but was it really coz she really didn't care? Or like, coz the guy is just casual friend so she put up this cool front to not make things any more awkward than it already is... And I think, sometimes hardening ur heart can help u through a lot of life's pits... Crystal said maybe she had alr struggled with this issue in her heart alr and I think so too... So what if the baby is not of the man tt u love but the result of a moment's folly? It's still ur baby right?? And what exactly is the right thing to do in such a case?

If it were me, I don't think I will be able to keep it... I will probably regret it and cry and feel guilty for the rest of my life but I don't think I am brave enough to bring it to the world... In the first place, I will probably blame it for all the lost opportunities... I will probably lament tt the baby robbed me of my freedom... Selfish I know. Irresponsible I know. It's not the baby's fault but mine right?

Thank God I don't have to think of such things... I pity tt girl really... So young, and most would prob say it's her own fault for taking tt step to risk pregnancy but I still think, she alr has enough punishment coz she will have to carry this guilt in her for the rest of her life... Will she still be able to smile at tt cute cooing baby in the pram at the mall?? Will she be able to look at her own baby next time and cry tears of joy and not guilty tears for the baby tt she killed years ago?

Shite... getting a bit emo now... Haiz... Must be Toni Braxton singing Unbreak My Heart on Class95 tt's causing me to feel liddat...

I pray tt I will never have to stand at such a crossroad... I pray tt I will never have to look back on my life and regret taking a life... I pray tt no girl stands there too.