I don't think he knows

that it takes a lot of effort to be aloof. To be detached and cool about many things. Or has my being chill about things led to more of such shit?

Anyway, he's back in one piece so I guess tt's good. Not tt he went to a dangerous place. Guess what he got for me? A Dou-mo kun soft toy. Yes, a soft toy all the way from Taiwan. And that is after I had just told him I think soft toys are cute but a waste of space. I just told him before he left. I still rem the incident, coz we had seen a giant Hello Kitty soft toy in Plaza Singapura and I had commented it was cute but a total waste of space. And he still bought a soft toy for me. From Taiwan. Yay.

I have to say that, it took a lot of effort to say thank you. I couldn't meet him in the eye lah. And he was still saying, "Couldn't find Ham-taro so bought this..." Seriously, at that moment, I felt like I was falling into a well lah... Can feel my heart sinking. Was he not listening?? Or, was it a token gift for the gf tt was waiting at home...

I know, the stereotypical thinking is that all girls like cute cuddly soft toys... So, just buy a soft toy to placate her... Seriously, even now, I feel disappointed lah. And it isn't even nice to hug. It's shaped like a dice, and quite thick so it's really quite a chore to hug it to my chest... Can suffocate myself with it lah.

I feel so "ARGH!" and it didn't help tt it was obvious he enjoyed himself there lah. Just saw the photos online. Fucking pissed off right now.