Choosing Places

Oh manz... They went to watch Perhaps Love liao... After reading yw's blog, really sianz, why never go with them... Actually wanted to watch last night but Alan don't want to watch chinese movies then we watched King Kong instead... Wished I had stayed in hall instead and gone to watch Perhaps Love with the rest...

Kinda fun to go out in a big group and just rara together... Bet, they walked back to hall together... Reminds me of the time when we went to watch The Maid for the Garfios outing... Then we all just rara together in JQ's room.... Haha!!

Didn't join Fiona they all at Mambo last night too... Felt a bit sad to wake up in the morning to see all the SMSes they had sent, asking where i was and how come they cannot find me at Mambo... Like suddenly, I am not spending enough time with my big groups anymore... Cannot HaLa together and just have fun... Manz, totally forgot how time-consuming a bf can be... I mean, he's nice and I enjoy the time tt we spend together but still, hanging out with friends is different also...

Kinda hard, coz Alan and I don't run in the same social circles so it's like, if we sepnd time together, I can't spend time with my sistas and buds and other friends... Manz... I guess, everything comes at a price...

Then there's tt thing about uncertainty tt I just can't get over... I find it strange tt if he were to leave now, I won't be heartbroken or find it hard although I think I am falling harder for him every minute... Why is this so?? My goodness...

I have not seen Diane in like what, 2 weeks?? I miss her and I wish I could bitch to her about everything and nowI sort of have a 4.0 megapixel picture of why they keep refering to it as 18AUs.... Bleh!!! So many things to do also...

Maybe it's not too late yet to pull the brakes on this whole affair... I don't know... Maybe it really is too complicated when a guy and girl comes together... What ever happened to my skepticism and caution??

Diane knows me too well...

I really don't know what I am doing... It's always image 100% but no matter how cool and collected I look, I can be a total wreck inside... I like to believe I am in control of what I am doing and what goes on in my life but half the time, I don't even understand why I am doing some stuffs... Oh god, help me... What am I doing???

Tell me, am I lost or am I lost??