I try to count the number of bruises on my body but they are like... everywhere... Haha! A bit hard to keep track even with the help of a mirror... On my legs, my arms, on my waist... Bleh!! Blue and black all over... Looked like serious abuse case...
Well, thing is, those bruises don't really hurt anymore, but they are still there... I know tt the discolouration won't be there if I had rubbed them when they had first turned up, although it would have hurt...
I guess, letting go and getting over someone is just about the same thing... Not wanting to get over someone and can't get over someone is different... It's like a bruise, if u don't want to rub it then the discolouration will still be there and always will be... U don't rub it coz u know it will hurt and u are afraid of tt pain... But if u can't get over someone, maybe it's coz the bruise happened to be out of ur reach and although u want to rub it away, u can't...
If u really had the determination to get over her, u would have... Maybe u are still holding on to a thread of hope which is tied to nothing, but just floating in the air...? Are u going to give up on love? U are not allowing urself to let go, why? Did something happen between the 2 of u tt makes u feel tt u can't give her up, or tt u owe her something? For all we know, she might be leading a better life and is very happy now... Be happy for her tt she is doing well and learn to embrace the beautiful things in life tt were once presented to u by her... Don't ever let her know what u are doing to urself now or she will find u an emotional burden, tt she has turned u into such a sad person...
I almost turned into a second u when u went away... But I didn't want to let u think tt I couldn't do without u... Loving someone and needing someone is different... If u love someone, u will be happy as long as he or she is... Needing someone is like dragging the person down beside u wherever u go, regardless of the person's wishes... I want u to be happy, to be loved and cared for by another... I don't want to see u alone...
It's all within u... U have given me ur blessings, I want to be able to do the same for u... I told u before, it never had to be me, but please step out and see all the things tt u are missing out on, all the promises and dreams tt u can share with another tt u love... I pray for the day when I can try to wheedle a pint of B&J from u also coz there is reason to celebrate...
My dear friend and confidante, let her go so tt I can let my thoughts off u also once and for all... Find tt special someone so tt I can smile and know tt u will be happy... It never had to be me, but let someone into ur heart again please... Don't let me see u alone...
And spill it, what flavour B&J u want?
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