The knot has been untied

I feel so much better.

The knot that has been stuck in me has been untied. I know I was told to wait and see but I think I really like being carefree and don't like living with uncertainty and ambiguity so I did what my best friend adviced and also what she said I will normally do: ask upfront.

So I finally did. And I didn't want to play tt "see who msg who first" game coz I don't like playing games and I want it to be known tt I am sincere and true about my thoughts and feelings. So yes, I msged first and yes, I finally said everything tt needed to be said and asked everything tt needed to be answered.

And I have received satisfaction in tt I no longer live with tt uncertain grey cloud above my head and I think I can live with tt...

Ambivalence wasn't from him but from life itself I guess... Last week was good and this week wasn't. It's life. But I guess I know for certain now tt yes, I still like being upfront and carefree. I am a free-spirit and I want to stay tt way. I don't want to be trapped by uncertainty and I like doing things as I like.

I own myself and I will never allow anyone to bind my emotions and moods! =)