Holiday

Haven't had my first paper yet but already looking forward to the holidays... Really can't wait for it to come... For once, I can breathe again and do all the things tt I want to do... Recharge my batteries and face whatever may come next semester...

Time really flies and feel kinda overwhelmed tt time is just passing me by... I stand at where I am now and sort of look back... When i thought i had not been able to walk away from, they are all sort of behind me now... Some of them still near, but definitely behind... And again, some things are still with me, clutched tightly to my chest... But whatever i hold in my hands now is dead... No amount of cajoling and effort on my part will get it to revive and be mine...

I now hold the empty shell of it... Nothing more...

Someone told me tt i'll probably meet some guy tt is interested in me soon, again, but no. Even if, a VERY BIG IF, there is one, i really don't think i can... Not just anyone will do... I'm picky and seriously, i still have a sorta model in the mind and tt someone (whoever it may be) will not be able to be everything tt i want...

I want someone tt is like him... Or do i...? Or do i just want him? No...? Or am i still searching for more to add on to my list of expectations...? Am i...?