Toiling

Exams are coming and i can feel the heat of pressure... Praying hard and working towards a pretty lil report slip... Do they post a copy of the results to our home address?? They have results notification via SMS like in TP... Sooooo looking forward to tt beep when I will get to know my results with just a press of the button...

Kamiyagi-san(Raye came up with tt name) seemed to have pushed everything behind already... Not moping about it really... But just a lil surreal tt everything can change in a weekend... 48, or is 72hrs of drama and we behave like nothing has ever happened before... But i know what it will be like... A few days later, the tell-tale scars of past conversation will come back to pepper our everyday chit-chat... Not moping about it at all... Just talking to myself really...

I'm sorry Ray if I seemed really dismissive tt day when u tried to console me... But i just didn't want tt outlet to pour everything out... If i start i will not stop... Just continue convincing myself of the non-chalance and i will be alright... My bestie thinks I am the da-bu-si kind and i want to be just tt... Maybe a still a bit bitter and sour about things but Kamiyagi-san is still Kamiyagi-san... Hehe!!!

Now got my books to busy me, then exams, then chiong!!! (BIG time!!!) and then it's Cheer and work... Will have to plan Night Cyclong during the holiday so tt we can arr to have it within the first month when school start... Have a headache now tt Vincent is gone... Funny tt i should miss him now... (Hahaha!!!) In the professional sense, mind u!!!

Sunday evening, SL helped me bring my stuff back to hall... Had jit dua bu things to lug back... Food, pots, cutleries and more clothes... Bleh!!! Limei and James caught us in the room and i sort of didn't know how to introduce them to each other... But the 2 of them also very cute... Sit on the bed side by side then SL sitting on my bed, a bit like Jian Jia Zhang... Haha!!!

SL didn't say "i told u so" or tt i shouldn't have gone away in the first place... Wouldn't have appreciated it anyway... But he just listened and didn't say much... I guess he of all ppl understood tt i needed to be strong for myself and tt i couldn't be babied now... He knew tt I was still licking my own wounds and tt I didn't like to lose so...

I am learning to appreciate being alone all over again... I want to quietly observe life and all tt it brings... Thank u for all tt u gave and everything tt u took away...

P.S: Psycho HP101 lecture today say: "Women cannot tolerate emotional infidelity but Men cannot tolerate sexual infidelity the most..."